4everbroken

i always dreamed small small town small dreams small goals highschool football graduate truck dog its all i ever wanted for myself why was i so young and ready to settle why was i so young and never saw pass the stars i looked up i saw them but i only ever wanted to be under them never above and when that simplicity got ripped away did my dreams ever grow no when i was offered bigger dreams bigger goals the stars did i want them no just a goldfish missing his goldfish bowl wanting those small dreams but why do those simple small dreams seem so unattainable

do i just keep wrighting will their ever be a point i find myself thinking im deep i can take these words i can weave them i can make art i can express them but what do i do now do i create them do i express them is their a purpose will my words carry will they matter will you see them will you feel what i feel can it help me stop feeling how i feel is that the purpose escape release freedom then why do i feel so trapped by it why i cant i escape it why do these words weigh me down like so many memoires lost in the twist and turns of what words to use what words to not use delving deeper into the pain tears staining my pages are they joy are they sadness relief release madness so what do i do now

do you ever lie awake at night and remember how it felt like we couldn't get close enough now I'm driven by madness because some days I hate the distance wedged between us and other times I remember the pain and wish their was more distance in my heart do you ever lie awake and think all those times we kissed stole every moment needed each others breath that being with out you is easy as breathing its so hard to think that someone who meant so much to you now can only clash with you every time trying to make it work like shoving a piece into the wrong hole repeatedly knowing its never going to work but trying anyway because I'm foolish and you don't wanna be alone and neither did I sometimes i wanna drown every memory of you but i know in every bottle your waiting right their inside its vast emptiness their the ghost of you theirs just no drowning you I hate the last time we kissed it was warm and familiar like the comfort I missed honestly shaking at how good it was and how

what did you need from me so i don't have to end up lonely did you need me to be at the end of a few lost bottles or sitting with you while you collect your coin how many cigarettes' did we need to burn watch the embers burn sun up or sun down what did you need from me to take away all your troubles or did you need to know all of mine did you need a voice or did you need my ear did you need my shoulder or a soft boot to get you on your way what could of i took or left to make you feel better did you feel alone did you feel trapped could of i sat with you a little longer could i been your escape how much time would of it took minutes or seconds for you to not be gone or was that always the road you were headed on when your time comes dose your time actually come or could i of sat with you a little longer and maybe you could still be sitting hear with me

her smile will light your world her laugh will infect you her love will warm you and when she yells penis shell capture you in forever

replacing pain with you i came here broken you filled the spots i came here lost you became my north when i cried tears you wiped my face i frowned you made me smile i was alone you held me i was scared you comforted me i needed love you loved me darkness swallowed me and you became my light